Who am I?

Never really sure about the feelings in my mind.
Never really sure about who I really am.
The older I get the more I want to just be who I am.
In this life it seems we have to be who others want us to be.
Trapped in a job that I don't want to be, yet I am grateful for.
Trapped in a state that I don't want to be, yet I love it.
I just want to run, but I love what I have. I would be scared to lose all of it.
I am often trapped in a depressive state, yet I really have no reason to be.
I lost the love of my life, although I have a new love in my life.
I have nothing to complain about, but I reserve my blog for that right.
I am grateful for all I have, but sad for what I don't.
Jeri I miss you so much, yet I am grateful that I have our daughter.
Just need one day a month to bury my head in my pillow and wish the world would go away.
Today is a rough day for no reason at all.
Just want to get in the car and drive to the ocean. That is my sanctuary, yet it is much too far away. How the hell did I end up here? At least tomorrow is a new day!